Sri lankan parents

Some times don't u feel like ur not living ur own life.. and ur living ur life according to what ur parents have always wanted their life to be? It's weird .. I love my parents so much .. they have done so much for me. They have always put my interests before their own. But sometimes i feel like that i don't want everything that they want.

I am Sri lankan, and having "brown" parents made things even more difficult for me. They left Sri lanka for me, for my future.. and when ever i do something wrong or i get into trouble they always give me the " why we came to Canada .." lecture, to make me feel guilty. Its so unfair don't u think?

But the worst thing of all is that the fact that they expect me to behave like an Sri lankan girl in Canada. That's hard if u all know what i mean ... ive been living here for quite along time and even though i have never forgotten the sri lankan culture and traditions its kinda hard for me to incorporate those things into my life here..

Like i know in Sri lanka girls don't really go out and be out at night, i know that they are not wild and go out and drink and all that ( I'm not saying that these things are good and that I'm doing them ok ). Its just weird coz I'm in Uni and these are the things that people do here .....( especially in unis) and when i don't go out and stay secluded ( like my parents want me to be) i miss out on everything ... ( i basically miss out on the fun part of being in Uni ) .

When i ask my parents why i cant go out and all they are like " pissuda ... mehe lamai wage haddennada yanne..." ( I cant help it when I'm around "mehe lamai" 24/7 !!!!) My friends don't even ask me out anymore coz they know that my answer would be "No, my parents wont let me" its pathetic actually !!

How am i supposed to get ready for the "real world" if i don't get the experiences that i need to survive ? How am i supposed to network or to be social ?

Well i guess that's enough ranting now ... :(

I wish i was white !!